Cycle 1 IUI *cycle abandoned* (15/5/11 -7/6/11)

15/5/11: (Cycle Day 1)

Started my period today at 12noon so on CD1 finally starting IUI!!!!!!

16/5/11: (CD2)

today is hell in my stomach really in alot of pain it’s all clots almost no blood so take it the lining of the uterus hasn't broken down right not uncommon for me sadly. anyways called the hospital today at 8am then 10am lol the women i got sadly was a bitch but nothing new there lol so she explained i will have to come in on Thursday which i knew and then nightmare on Saturday we have to trek to another hospital as they are not opened on a sat or Sunday to get my 2nd injection the other hospital is about 30miles away over 2hours on the train so not looking forward to that bit was kind of pissed off by that but what can you do ah? ah well anyways so guess it’s a good thing we're getting started, i have to start taking Clomid tonight and got my medicine box all filled up with everything i need to take all my vitamins and all my drugs on the right days :D hopefully all the organising will help :D

Thursday’s appointment 2:10pm, sat anytime at other hospital and Monday’s appointment is at 9:35am. So alot going on.

17/5/11: (CD3)

Started taking Clomid last night so hopefully it works. at the moment i am putting all my effort into planning my son's 4th birthday which is on 22nd June but having his birthday party on 19th, we're having a train & tiara party... so looking for ideas.

18/5/11:(CD4)

2nd day on Clomid and one day before my first injection, Clomid handling alright no terrible side effects as of yet lol also spent all day trying to think of great ideas for my son's Birthday party :D anyways i am ready for the injection so bring it on!!!!

19/5/11:(CD5)

Well today was a long and draining day my OH and MIL at headlock as per usual, they were watching the wee man while i went to the hospital and decided to get a later train to the hospital so i could get James to nursery and then head through to the hospital i was lucky to get the train although as always sooo costly, it only took 1 hour on the train so got there in good time, although when i got back i tried to go up to the nursery to help my OH out and he had got a taxi back so had walked about mile and a half to the nursery for nothing so had to walk back lol anyways....

While at the hospital they took me in really quickly and gave me a huge bag of stuff i will need to carry around with me for my IUI treatment etc. i already had a small bag of stuff that i carry around with me pictures should be below this post for you to check out lol anyways the needle going in was fine it was the bloody drug being injected that was painful made me feel little dizzy and sickly i am worried about doing it myself as i could not even watch her doing it but will get there so came home with my IUI bag in purple my fave colour lol with: sharps bin in it, three practise kits, my next injection and information and such. my little bag which wasn't that big had my medicine/vitamins, fertility monitor, digital ovulation tests, special cup for IUI, drug alert etc.

Anyways here are the pictures click to see my kitchen sink:

20/5/11: (CD6)

I have my 2nd injection tomorrow but at a hospital miles away so luckily my dad is taking me to get it. been really tired and little emotional today not sure if it’s because the drugs or if i am just emotional cause of the stress of life at the moment either way i was very happy last night and i hope to be again soon although my DS James seems to be having an off day lol i wanted a lazy day and instead he's climbing the walls and messing up the house. ah well keeps me fit i guess lol anyways hurry up day 11 so we can get scan to see if all this effort is working

Anyways until then i am going to eat as healthy as i can and read lots to relax

21/5/11: (CD7)

I decided to start making TTC videos and thought would post about them on here, this is my channel so come check me out:

anyways today i got my 2nd gonal-f injection it was worse than the first one and left a mark which never happened so hopefully on Monday i will be doing it myself from then on, plus i have been eating kind of healthy to help out and taking my drugs and vitamins at the same time bought some pineapple juice and cranberry juice to detox myself and drinking alot more water than i ever have so hoping it all helps us... here’s hoping... anyways tomorrow is another free day then i am up at the hospital on Monday for my 3rd gonal-f injection then be my scan on Wednesday...so here's hoping ovaries give me three decent size eggs.... THREE is the magic number :D

23/5/11: (CD9)

I got my 3rd gonal-f injection today, i done it myself before passing out and causing a small scratch to my bely because of the needle my son was there but it went alright, then the bad weather hit and the trains stopped running so was unable to get home, all fun and games, got my first scan on CD 11 on Wednesday so hopefully we'll see something then...

25/5/11: (CD11)

had a mad and upsetting day, my son this morning had little blisters on his body so had to keep him off of nursery so had to take him to his grandma’s before could go to the hospital, when i got to the hospital to get my scan i was hoping that my ovary would be producing some nice eggs but not too many, well when i was in the scan the women seemed happy enough she said i had 3 eggs, thought fantastic, when i was cleaning myself up i asked what side they were on and she said "left.... oh right that’s right you don't have your left tube, we will need to cancel this cycle" once she said this i felt like screaming or crying or something she said it was out of their control now and i would just have to wait till my period started to get scanned make sure they have gone and then start next lot of IUI but she said this could keep happening. i felt and didn't mean to but slapped her office door shut then walked out crying, wasn't happy kept shouting then crying etc. was a mess, then i went to get the bus home, and was about 10-20mins early so thought i would just listen to my music. the bus finally showed up over 30mins late and the destination on the bus wasn't right, i asked the driver and he said he was only doing half the journey because he was soo late etc., but my house is at the end of the root and that was meant to be the last one! So safe to say that set me off again i could not believe how much bad luck i had in one day. anyways my MIL was kind enough to get me after she finished work and take me here to her house to have dinner i have calmed down a bit but still extremely depressed about this wasted cycle, after trying for over 4years i didn't expect our first IUI cycle to end like this i didn't believe it would end in pregnancy either but still... anyways so that’s what happened there now more bloody waiting and wasting  i guess i should be grateful cause at least when it comes to self-injecting next month i will actually know what i am doing.

End of Cycle one - IUI ended in abandonment

28/5/11: (CD14)

we decided to keep baby dancing and going to do ovulation tests and hope that by some miracle a egg pops up on my right side and is released so going to keep going with TTC even if it is on our own and wait for our next cycle to start :D

29/5/11: (CD15)

well ovulation tests were positive today so we have been BD'ing

1/6/11: (CD18 - 3DPO)

its 3DPO if i did have an egg to ovulate, my boobs have been agony but read it’s a side effect of the IUI drugs :( but got some good news yesterday got reaccepted onto a course i was on a few years ago but had to leave because personal problems and losing our little princess.... but going back for a 2nd go...

5/6/11: (CD18 - 7DPO)

Today i had some spotting and pains on my left hand side so no idea what’s going on going to have to wait it out due to go back to hospital on 15th to see about starting the next cycle ....

7/6/11: (CD18 - 9DPO)

Today i got some of my 10 cycles worth if Clomid first the doctor only gave me 5 tablets stupid idiot never read the letter right and though it said one cycle worth of Clomid but she also wrote take one twice a day wow sooo wrong, anyways so i had to go back and get another prescription this time she gave me 60 so i got 65 lol well i only have 35 at the moment because the chemist only had 30 in stock and can't seem to get anymore lol thankfully i don't need any more for the moment as i already now have 7months supply so should be alright for a bit :D i also was silly and done a HPT of course it was negative but had to anyways lol anyways hopefully be back on the IUI horse soon :D xxx

End on Cycle 1!!