IUI Cycle 7 (Cycle 8) = 22/11/11 - dec 2011 (our end game)

Eighth Cycle (IUI cycle)
22/11/11: (CD1 of Cycle 8)
Confusion at the moment i contacted the clinic to say i started bleeding and although i am bleeding a little almost like a little cut, i thought it was maybe spotting leading up to period but almost the light spotting kept happening the period never really started, but decided to tell the clinic what was happening and have been told to come for a start of cycle scan.

23/11/11: (CD2 of Cycle 8)
Had appointment at the clinic and still very little in the way of bleeding, I told the nurse i was confused about whats happening and she scanned me, she said my linning was thin, i had a few small cysts/follicles on my ovaries (but nothing to worry about) and said it was my job to really mark where i am in a cycle because taking the drugs at the wrong time can of course mess with the whoile IUI treatment, but she seemed to think maybe it was just a weird period... anyways came away with my injections and such, started clomid tonight....

24/11/11: (CD3 of Cycle 8)
Almost day of confusion with mmy period still almost little or no bleeding so still unsure what to make on it.... now onto 2nd day on clomid....

25/11/11: (CD4 of Cycle 8)
no more bleeding the bleeding never came to anything and never had any pains or Period symptoms.

26/11/11: (CD5 of Cycle 8)
Done my first injection of Gonal-F for this cycle it was using a pre-filled pen and although it has not hurt in the past it was sore this time, since then have been feeling very unwell.....

27/11/11: (CD6 of Cycle 8)
injection free day but clomid day today, been feeling really tired, sore and ill all day keep feeling like i am going to be sick, or faint and dealing with a bad case of vertigo..... unsure whats causing it all and unsure what to do.... I did a HPT yesterday as i just wasn't sure what to think it was negative but i am still so unsure whats going on.....

28/11/11: (CD7 of Cycle 8)
Done my 2nd injection today taking alot towork up to it but luckily i got peace to do it and it didn't hurt as much as CD5, scan booked for wednesday (CD10)

30/11/11: (CD9 of Cycle 8)
Well last injection tonight it wasn't one of my pre-filled ones so hurt like hell but had a good day otherwise we were out on the strike and marching against the pension cuts etc, alot more work to do but will get there, back to college and work tomorrow should be fun but got the hospital at 8am tomorrow morning so early start tomorrow....

9/12/11: (CD19 of Cycle 8)
Hi all this is the update from this cycle... anywaysIi had a scan at CD10 which showed that i have 20 follicles the biggest being 1.6cm i was then admitted to hospital that day for monitoring i was given a abdominal scan the next day and discharge with them saying i can deal with it at home while i was in hospital i was given blood thinners.

Then on Monday CD 14 i contacted my clinic, i called monday but no answer as we had a snow storm the night before so the clinic i am guess was closed, the tuesday i got through in the afternoon and was offered an appointment for a scan the next day which was 6days after my first scan and 5days after i had been discharged from Hospital CD 16.

anyways I was in agony monday night, and then tuesday i called for help but clinic was closed so contacted them in the morning and they said to keep my afternoon appointment for the next day.

when i went into the the clinic and was given an internal scan. they found right away that my ovaries were not were they should be and that they were wondering around. they said my ovaries were so enlarged that it was dangerous and sent me back to the hospital i was orginally at for more monitoring while in the scan they found it hard to tell which ovary was which.

i got to the hospital and waited over 5hours to be admitted, then they started doing my bp and temp every 6ish hours, was given blood thinners,

Thursday i got very ill, shakey and felt so cold and ill, i just kept falling asleep and my BP kept dropping dangerously low and my heart rate was sitting at 134bpm. anyways all they offered was over the counter crappy painkillers this morning after a horrible night in agony and having problems with my heart rate and bp my doctor said i was fine and that i was likely i would be going home that i was getting much better.

I was booked in for a scan at 10:40am and had this scan it was an abdominal one but the dr doing the scan was great he said that he knew i was in alot of pain that he could basically feel my ovaries and could see they were wondering. during the scan he found many follicles most of which were over 5-6cm and there were alot of them. and my ovaries which were meant to be 3cm were extremely enlarged and were 15+cm in diameter from what he could see he said it was very hard and he had utterly no idea which ovary was which. and also there is now fluid around my liver, after getting almost no care at the hospital and getting worse myself, my MIL and my OH decided it was best for me to move to somewhere else....

I went to another hospital last night and was told that the nsh protocol to just leave me they would only do something if something burst or if i became septic lovely ah.

also can not convert to IVF as we can't get IVF treatment it will never work.

anyways i dunno what to do or say because i have had little help or advice when i left the other hospital they refused for me to even get my notes to take to the other hospital. the doctor doing my scan was the only decent doctor he said he was worried i could become septic or even that they could leak or burst or even that it could end with losing an ovary and effecting other organs.

anyways sorry not a very short story...

OUR TTC JOURNEY I THINK IS OVER NOW.
I am sad as well as sore i didn't want it to end like this but looks like its not going to end well anyways so is enough enough?

Fertility doctors have told us to stop TTC my liver is still not working right and even after being out of the hospital now for a few weeks still in a bit of pain.

Cycle 7 (non- iui cycle) = 24/10/11 - 22/11/11

Seventh Cycle (having a non-iui cycle)
24/10/11: (CD1 of Cycle 7)
well to top off my horrible week the Withc came today..... bloody typical i have decided that since we have a lot to cope with at the moment that i will have a non-iui month this cycle and see what happens.

5/11/11: (CD12 of Cycle 7) 
I keep forgetting about my cycle and updating because i have been soooo bloody busy we we finally moved everything into the new place which is a nightmare because now everything is needing build and unpacked  lots to do and no time to do it and my asthma is really really bad i feel sooo light headed but can't afford to take time off  but will get there hopefully.... hopefully by monday the new place will be somewhat finished. anyways on TTC front not much happening because me and OH bearly talking he is MR grumpy pants and i am too tired to care lol
22/11/11: (CD29 of Cycle 7)
After period being late i have been having nothing but confusion, i done one test and got a slight positive then all negatives, started bleeding this PM

Official End on Cycle 7!!

IUI cycle 6 = 24/9/11 - 23/10/11

Sixth Cycle IUI 24/9/11: (CD1 of Cycle 6)
With clinic being closed unsure what’s happening this cycle believe cycle might get cancelled
25/9/11: (CD2 of Cycle 6)
Today i decided to start Clomid just in case i do get to try this cycle’s treatment going to phone the clinic tomorrow to see what to do.....
26/9/11: (CD3 of Cycle 6)
Called clinic today but was shut due to bank holiday not looking too hopefully.
27/9/11: (CD4 of Cycle 6)
called and left clinic a message this afternoon they got bank to me asking if i could come in for a scan tomorrow.....
28/9/11: (CD5 of Cycle 6)
today had start of cycle scan and nurse said i could do this month’s treatment if i want but it would be mainly injections i had to do my first injection in front of her because it was a new needle the pre-filled injection pen i used and it was my first time using it luckily although its new and my phobia has to adjust it isn't as sore as the other needle. I am not on 150mg of gonal-f.... will see what happens

30/9/11: (CD7 of Cycle 6)
Done 2nd lot of injection today which like last time was better less pain: D although i do feel little sickly afterwards see what happens

2/10/11: (CD9 of Cycle 6)
Yesterday was our angel Casey's 1st birthday which was hard and horrible but got through it without any tears. Just kept busy. Today is the last of my injections and got my first scan on Tuesday.....

4/10/11: (CD11 of Cycle 6)
Sadly missed my scan waiting to see what they say.....
5/10/11: (CD12 of Cycle 6)
went for my first follicle scan and there was 8 follicles on my right ovary 3 if which were fully mature and there was 3 follicles on my left ovary all immature but some more could pop up, due to OHSS she cancelled this cycle......
but.... off the books she said have sex the fact its natural should reduce the risk of twins she said she wasn't worried about me getting pregnant with twins more the effects of the OHSS... so going to do OPK from now on and catch the eggs if there are any, as some might have seen last time i had OHSS i had 14 follicles and no eggs at all so we'll see....

23/10/11: (CD29 of Cycle 6 - 11DPO)
sorry not been updating, long story but we're having housing issues and now have to move yet a bloody again so not happy about that in the slightest packing up our lives and moving to a new house were i need to spend a fortune redecorating so that James feels safe and happy..... Anyways i am not on CD29 I didn't actually ovulate until CD17 which is 3 days later than normal. I am really hoping that we get some good news, having a bad week bad day even.... last few days my last wisdom tooth has been coming through and it was find until it decided to cause bother and now got a bloody abscess under my jaw its agony, dealing with packing up the house etc. and wee man has chicken pox
I also done a HPT yesterday 2 actually and they were both negative although was only 11DPO so i really hope that many it was too early but my cycle last month was pretty short and was late by 3 days the cycle before but with the treatment it’s hard to know what to expect. Anyways will update when AF comes....


Official End on Cycle 6!!

IUI cycle 5 - 31/8/11 - 24/9/11

Fifth Cycle IUI 31/8/11:
 (CD1 of Cycle 5)
well after a hopeful morning sadly stupid witch appeared and i become heartbroken i let myself become hopeful and it all just fell apart not nice feeling luckily enough i didn't have class which was good because i could not face it. We were meant to be taking a break this cycle from IUI but i decided just to go for it since i had done alot of the first half of this course anyways so might as well suffer while i am doing things i have done than through doing classes i have not. So hopefully treatment will work soon.... at hospital tomorrow for first scan.
1/9/11: (CD2 of Cycle 5)
Had scan today and got the go ahead from the clinic i meet the nurse who had been off on leave and she is really nice i really hope i get the rest of my treatment from her because she went through it herself.... start Clomid tonight.

2/9/11: (CD3 of Cycle 5)
Clomid again tonight because of my course i keep forgetting about the Clomid but took it the moment i remembered.
4/9/11: (CD5 of Cycle 5)
well first injection tonight it was pretty hard to get it in i just keep chickening out lol but got it done in the end we had a great day out too wish weekend was longer as i am sooo tired lol
9/9/11: (CD10 of Cycle 5)
Went for Cycle day 10 scan today and too many cycles on my left side so this cycle cancelled
18/9/11: (CD19 of Cycle 5)
not been thinking about much this cycle been trying not too and didn't even notice i was on CD 19 already lol i am considering not doing IUI next cycle as i am tired but i will see how i feel when AF comes, which is due on 28th i have a CT scan on my lungs same day lol
20/9/11: (CD21 of Cycle 5)
Had some stomach pains but been trying to keep busy. Lots to do with exams and work 24/9/11: (CD25 of Cycle 5) yesterday i started getting weird period like pains was in agony, then early hours this morning i got a bleed sadly due to unknown cause i got my period well over a week early.... clinic not opened to find out....


Official End on Cycle 5!!

IUI cycle 4 (3/8/11 - 30/8/11)

Fourth Cycle IUI

3/8/11: (CD1 of Cycle 4)
Got my period early hours of this morning and had scan this afternoon. There were no follicles left from last cycle so was giving my injections for this cycle to do on CD5,7,9 they considered not using clomid this cycle but the decided at last min to use clomid as usual. I explained i never had a LH surge this cycle so she has confirmed the follicles were empty of eggs like i thought ah well what cam you do? Anyways because Af came this morning counting this as CD1 i had follicle scan next friday to see whats happening so if follicles are big enough and on right side etc that friday then might be a natrual DTD cycle instead of injecting the swimmers lol but if not then will be given more gonal-f for sat then trigger on sunday for insemination on the following monday but got to wait and see i'd be happy with natrual cycle as OH has super sperm anyways

4/8/11: (CD2 of Cycle 4)well 2nd day of cycle and period its bloody killer this cycle due to start Clomid tonight, few days before the first lot of injections i have not made a YouTube video for a while so might try and made one tonight if i get a chance. i got a dongle for my house but getting virgin installed on Saturday so will be back to normal in next few days but like a war zone here my OH and DS at each other’s throats  makes me really sad to have to listen to it.

5/8/11: (CD3 of Cycle 4)Another day of Clomid and period starting to calm down thankfully see what this cycle brings
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J7nY6bNvG8Y&feature=player_embedded

7/8/11: (CD5 of Cycle 4) first day of injections had double dose this injection but all the others are single injections still taking Clomid last day tomorrow on that then next injection in 2 days hate doing these injections least tomorrow is a needle free day

9/8/11: (CD7 of Cycle 4)
2nd lot of injections today, forgot all about it at first then spent hours trying to do it kept chickening out i don't know why i have days like this where i feel i am unable to do the injections but i know needs must got the hospital tomorrow so i know won’t be having a needle free day

10/8/11: (CD8 of Cycle 4)
was at the hospital today because my breathing is getting really bad so had to have x-rays, breathing tests and they wanted to do a CT scan but because i had one done in 2010 i asked them to look at that one first before giving me another one, they also took lots of blood to test and see if i have any more allergies than i know about.... so we'll see what that comes back as he wants to change my meds and have to talk to infertility clinic about this first as won’t be able to take the meds if the clinic say no. so have to wait and see they might not even do anything anyways. I have to go back and see him in 10 weeks so in middle of October will be getting more tests if i am not pregnant before then.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aKzPdtDFU98&feature=player_embedded

11/8/11: (CD9 of Cycle 4) today was the last day of my injections kept putting it off because keep getting phobic again which isn't good but done it in the end, i have my first scan in the morning to see if the drugs have worked, if i have developed OHSS again or if we have to wait mature the follicles some more or if they will make me ovulate and me and OH just DTD. here's hoping they will just make me ovulate and me and OH can just DTD because i really cannot afford to go in on Monday, my son has an autism assessment on Monday which i cannot cancel so just hoping the hospital (infertility clinic) understand this i have to put the needs of my living child first.

12/8/11: (CD10 of Cycle 4)
Went for scan today and sadly not very great news, but guess it could always have been worse... there were 2 follicles one on my left 1.2 and one on my right 1.3. so not great plus the clinic is now closed until Monday and my son has as assessment on Monday morning so unable to get an appointment at clinic till late Monday which means i will likely have already ovulated but need to wait and see what they find on Monday, they told us to have sex over the weekend anyways just in case i have been testing with ovulation tests just in case i usually don't ovulate till CD 14-15 so hopefully that will be the case and will be able to get the trigger injection Tuesday and do IUI on Wednesday i really hope some more follicles pop up before then i am unsure what they are going to do since there is a follicle on my left ovary but will have to wait and see will update asap xxx

15/8/11: (CD13 of Cycle 4)
Well went for scan today and there was a follicle on my right ovary which was 1.7 so they offered me afternoon IUI at the clinic. in the morning i had my son at the mental health clinic which was fun so it was an all go day... going to be a long week as now at the hospital tomorrow and Wednesday to, James is meant to start back at nursery on Wednesday but having to cancel because i had to go to the hospital. He is going back on Thursday though so that should be good. Was given my HCG injection to do today and ended up like the last time doing it on the train because it had to be done 10mins after my appointment was finished lol ops. Anyways least was done back tomorrow at 1:45pm least it’s not a morning IUI lol


16/8/11: (CD14 of Cycle 4 IUI Day)
at 1:45 handed in my OH's sample and had to go away for 2 hours for the to prepare the sample, i ended up going to get something to eat and this time i took my netbook with me so watched some true blood which i am addicted to again  so that helped pass the time for sure, then was time to go back the sample was good and they done the IUI at 3:45 it wasn't as sore as the last time but i had alot more bleeding this time but rested to the best i could as James is away at his great grandmothers till tomorrow anyways back at hospital tomorrow afternoon for post IUI scan.


17/8/11: (CD15 of Cycle 4 - 1dpiui)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iQ8er6HbhIE&feature=player_embedded

Well had scan this afternoon and they said i have alot of fluid around my uterus and ovaries so not sure what that’s about had it last time also. the scan also showed that i had a collapsed follicle again unsure what that’s about the nurse didn't sound too hopeful but said "you never know" so my Period is due on 29th and to call them on 6th September if the witch doesn't show up but i am sure she will. I am also going back to studying on 29th lol so going to be a mad day. I can't even test early because of the hCG injection lol ah well waiting game now

20/8/11: (CD18 of Cycle 4 - 4dpiui)
no symptoms today but still early days keep wanting to test but i know A it’s pointless and B i have hCG in my system because of the injection so just have to wait it out and see what happens. least i don't have to trek to the hospital now until late September early October because we are taking a month off we really need it !!!


23/8/11: (CD21 of Cycle 4 - 7dpiui)
before today i didn't really think about being pregnant and this cycle much at all been sooo busy with other things but when i got home today i felt weirdly tired as if i was going to pass out then i started feeling really full and sickly although i hadn't eaten much, and tonight while getting sorted for bed i feel as if my boobs are little bigger/fuller? I don’t know probably losing my mind lol

26/8/11: (CD24 of Cycle 4 - 10dpiui)
Done a hpt test and thought i seen something but think it’s all in my head lol going to wait to test see what happens

29/8/11: (CD27 of Cycle 4 - 13dpiui)
well apparently my period is due today no sign of it YET but sure it’s on its way or might just wait until i am in class tomorrow really going to try and wait till Friday to test.

30/8/11: (CD28 of Cycle 4 - 14dpiui)
Still no withc yet starting to get a little hopefully..... Time will tell.....

31/8/11: (CD29 of Cycle 4 - 15dpiui)
Nothing first thing this morning.... might test....

Official End on Cycle 4!!

End of Cycle 3....

30/7/11: (CD24 of Cycle 3 9DPO - roughly)well we came back from holiday last night sadly we had a family death so now dealing with the going to get us some clothes as the funeral is on monday so need to get myself and my partner something to wear my DS is going to stay at his grandmothers for the night while we deal with the funeral etc, my OH is a coffin bearer so alot to do, anyways TTC front, i am roughly 9DPO at the moment i think.... i am due AF on tuesday and although we were told not to have sex we did so we'll see i am going to buy a pregnancy test today and see what it says but might A be too early or B not even be preg so might be a waste of money anyways i need to go and walk the dog and deal with that before we go shopping will update more when we know it and will psot the test and its results later




2/8/11: (CD27 of Cycle 3 12DPO)
no AF so done a pregnancy test but was negative of course which i knew it would be, OH been very down about TTC which has made things even harder, just waiting on AF now.


3/8/11: (CD28 of Cycle 3 13DPO)
after midnight i started to wonder when AF would come but was getting all the feelings it was on its way..... (to be continued)

Offical End on Cycle 3!!
31/7/11: (CD25 of Cycle 3 10DPO - roughly)
well done test and of course no idea why i was worried about telling the hospital this cycle if i got pregnant pure waste of money. so on top of dealing with funeral stuff now depressed because of this and yet another person i know is pregnant without trying without wanting without all this shit ready to commit myself
anyways ready for my bed traveled over 4 hours today and helping out my OH and MIL then funeral tomorrow so alot to do.1/8/11: (CD26 of Cycle 3 11DPO)
had funeral today so didn't do much on TTc front i done a test yesterday and was negative, AF due tomorrow so will see what happens

We're going away for a while

hey all wanted to let everyone know that we're going away for a few days after what happened at the hospital yesterday i need a wee break so me and my boys are going to the beach, hopefully when we come back things will be brighter but i know even on holiday things will be stressful spent all day packing and cleaning the house been really run off my feet going to try and get the wee amn to sleep soon as we are leaving at 10am tomorrow at the latest and i will have so much to do before then.... also.... with the OHSS i have gained 2 inches on my waist so thats not too good but just going to keep drinking alot and keep an eye on the pain which has been alright, comes and goes more so after i eat etc..... 

where we're going is pretty much a dead zone. we will have no TV, no internet and no phone so cutting off from the world unless i steal my OH's phone and run onto the beach lol :D anyways hope everyone else has a good week xx